I haven’t sat down to write in this space for three months.
Well, that’s not entirely true. I’ve come here. I’ve flipped the lid of my laptop. I’ve stared blankly into the screen. I’ve opened up a fresh document and wrote over a thousand emotional words about the hollow exhaustion I feel on this lengthy health journey–plus, just all the feelings.
Feelings about shootings, infuriatingly flippant rape convictions and all of the tirelessly troubling news that seemed to hit over and over again during the summer. The 2016 political climate and how IDONTUNDERSTANDWHATISHAPPENING. I wrote about why I wasn’t writing. I just wrote all the words that came up. The word vomit. Out of my finger tips. Finger vomit? Feelings vomit? Finger feelings? I wrote those.
How do I say all the things I need to say? How vulnerable is too vulnerable? Do I even have anything important to say? I’ve been silent for too long. Do I even remember how to blog? This is a food blog, should I even talk about rape here? So many important things are going on, not to mention the crippling exhaustion I’ve faced these last months struggling with my own health. Should I let them know that sometimes, even though I’m strong, I cry and sincerely fear that I will never be healthy again? Should I really just write about salad? Look, here’s a nice salad. Surely I can’t come back from not saying any words, and being silently overwhelmed with emotions, just to jump back in like nothing ever happened and make you guys a salad!!
So, I made you a salad.
Not because the other things don’t matter. Not because I don’t have things to say. Mostly because I have too much to say, and this is how I’m going to try and dip my toes back in. This is the baby step. This is my “Hello, I guess I should get out of these sweatpants now.” This is my plea for you to just go with it and grab a fork and split a salad with yo’ girl.
The other stuff will come later. I think I should share more things on here than just fabulous salads or paleo brownies or hunks of delicious meat. All those things are good, but I need to write more of what I’m going through–what we’re all going through. If for nothing else, than to act as some kind of hippie spiritual soul medicine.
It’s kind of empowering to realize this is a site I created and I totally set the rules in this saloon. Like, remember when I started blogging and I used to just post doodles? There are no real rules. Except, the no rules rule. Or, the be nice to people rule. Or, the eating a whole chocolate bar is totally okay if you do it super quickly and it doesn’t count because it disappeared so fast rule. The last rule isn’t strictly enforced or legitimately a real rule. Maybe the rule should be that I shouldn’t make rules. OHEMGEE, IF I SAY THE WORD RULE ONE MORE TIME, I’M GONNA FREAK OUT. Yikes. This all came to a head swiftly. Ja Rule. Remember him? Ok, I’m done. So, let’s briefly and casually discuss salad–specifically this salad. It’s one of those no lettuce numbers. We’re packing pure crunch and flavor here. Sometimes it’s nice to take a departure from regular ol’ greens and embark on some new textures. Mouthfeel, amiright? The toasted nuts and coconut just make it extra mouthfeel-y. Plus, the sesame and ginger dressing is seriously addicting! Did I mention golden raisins? Because, hollllllerrrr. I don’t even know you guys. My blogability is rusty at best. But, I’m here–blogging about salad. Saying hello. Reminding you that Ja Rule was a person who did remixes with J-Lo, and telling you that I’ll be back soon.
I love you more than salad–so, that should mean a lot. CUZ, DAYYYUM. xoxo
Daikon And Carrot Noodle Salad With Sesame Ginger Dressing
- 1 very large carrot (girth is important here. The thicker, the easier it is to run through the spiralizer)
- 1 large daikon radish
- 1 large green apple
- 2 Persian cucumbers, sliced
- 1 cup chopped scallions
- 1 cup raw cashews
- 1/2 cup finely shredded coconut
- 1/4 cup golden raisins
- 1 heaping Tbsp.toasted sesame seeds
- 1/2 cup avocado oil
- 1/4 cup apple cider vinegar
- 1 Tbsp. toasted sesame oil
- 1 Tbsp. tamari (or, sub in coconut aminos to make it Paleo)
- 1 tsp. Red Boat Fish Sauce
- 1 large clove of garlic, pressed
- 1 tsp. minced ginger
- 1 tsp. raw honey (if you're vegan, try subbing in maple syrup!)
- Using a spiralizer (this is the one I used for this salad). spiralize the carrot, daikon radish and apple using the blade with the smallest grates. Add the noodles to a bowl to create the base of your salad.
- Top with chopped cucumbers and scallions. In a small pan, lightly toast the cashews and the coconut flakes until they are just golden brown and fragrant.Make sure to stir frequently and keep an eye on them so they don't burn. It happens quickly. Add this mix to the top of the salad along with the golden rasins and sesame seeds.
- To make the dressing combine all of the items under "dressing" into a mason jar. Give it a good whisk with a fork. Cover the jar with a lid and shake until the dressing comes together. This is just the method I used here. You could mix them together how ever you'd like. Use a whisk, or a blender. You're totally in control here. ?
- Once your dressing is ready, pour it over your salad and toss. Serve and enjoy!
always love reading your writing, seeing your spirit, feeling the feels with you. take all the time you ned. xo
Welcome back. So glad you jumped back into the saddle, onto the saddle? Which is it? It’s like riding a bike huh? All the cliches… and this https://youtu.be/Xi7v2ZqnpXA
Seriously though, it makes me so so happy to read your lovely words on my screen. I love you!
Gina, so glad you came back to us. <3 Always remember that we love you because you're authentic, and that means that we won't stop reading because you're vulnerable or take breaks.
Also, this salad looks amaaaaazing and I might need to buy a spiralizer now.
Happy to see a post from you! This salad looks so delicious. I’ll have to try it out next week.
Happy you are back, even just the “dipping toes back in the water” kind of back. I think the community you have created is totally okay with word vomit and finger feelings. A lot of times, you just write what we are all thinking, but have no place to say it. It’s like group therapy…but with salad. Which, in my opinion, would make group therapy more tolerable.
This looks awesome! And I’ve had the same struggles with blogging. But that’s one of the amazing things about it – you can write whatever YOU want – it’s your blog! Sure, there might be haters, but they can kindly GTFO, right? I love your writing style, and I look forward to reading whatever you have to write. <3
I used to have a blog many years ago. Once, I talked too much about things that hurt and so I dropped it. But, sadly I could never figure out how to pick it back up off the floor and simply share a salad again. I’m glad you figured it out because I sure like this salad.
This looks SUPER GOOD and I’m so glad you’re back! I know this was a month ago but whatevs ok?
Sometimes I struggle with what to write where and when but then I remember this is MY piece of the internet dammit and I’ll keep it messy if I want to. So write whatever, girl! I know I’ll read it and love it!
Thanks – didn’t have fish sauce, but it was still totally yummy.
Hi, other than the coconut aminos are there any other ingredients that are not Whole30 compliant? I am new to the program and am constantly afraid I’m missing something. Thanks!